June 20

It has been a weekend. I completely forgot to update this all on Friday I believe.

Friday morning I was contacted by one of the supervisors and a last-minute meeting was scheduled Friday afternoon.

I thought it went quite well.

The necessary paperwork was not submitted to the courts until last Thursday and typically it takes 2 weeks for approval, however, we have been told (by the head supervisor as well as the other supervisor) that my father will be getting the girls on Thursday following the pretrial.

This is what we are sticking to. At this point there have been so many lies and other issues that they don't really have too much room left to mess things up. The ball will (hopefully soon) be in our court and I really don't know where things will go from here.

In any case, they only have temporary custody for 90 days, which is until August 24 if it is going from the date of the emergency hearing. I don't know how long these things are going to drag out for, I just know that I have been waiting and waiting and at this point the girls have been in foster care for 4 weeks (as of tomorrow).

Last night was the first night Marilyn was willing (and actually wanting) to get off of the phone with me. She was having a good time there and after our hour long conversation (no we do not talk for an hour, she's 3 so you can just imagine how most of our phone conversations go- lots of times I just listen to her watch tv and talk to her throughout) she told me that it was time for me to take a bath and to go to bed and to have sweet dreams and that she loved me and that she would talk to me tomorrow. It was nice and I know that she's not having a terrible time, I know she misses us very very much and we talk about that every single conversation, but she's hanging in there and she's doing okay. I have bribed her with a ton of zhu zhu pets (which I scoped out at the store yesterday and I seriously cannot believe I will actually spend money on them, but she keeps talking about them). She is also under the promise of going to Chuck E. Cheese's.

I'm hanging in here the best I can. I forgot to take my vitamins which was a bad idea considering how stress affects me and my immune system went all haywire. Now I have a stye in my eye that I'm trying to heal as fast as I can. It feels wonderful. (Insert sarcasm here). Mark is hanging in here as well and has been keeping himself busy. I think by now if there were any evidence of anything that they would have arrested him by now. After a month they still haven't even done anything and I don't think that too much else is left to be done. I don't know.

The new caseworker has to get ahold of me (probably tomorrow) to make up a CasePlan. It has to be filed with the court by Thursday. They are quickly running out of time.

So I think all of the prayers are working, I keep praying as much as I can. This whole situation will work itself out, I just wish we weren't robbed of so much time with the girls and I know socially and emotionally they are going to be majorly affected by this. I'm not going to worry about that hurdle though until it happens.