today

Today I woke up and jollyed my children off to the school in a most wonderful manner and then I visited with my mom and I called a friend and I opened a bank account and I talked to my sister.

Today so far, is a really great day.

I sometimes get grumpy, and my previous post reflects my frustrations from a moment that necessitates documentation.

Part of me wants to call and cancel the appointment with the specialist before it is too late.

Then what?

I am thinking of just not dealing with it. About going back to doing nothing and holding that wish deep in my heart and putting it all in the hands of the Universe.

It's not up to me, is it?

And if I don't go, I won't know.

And this is the first step on a long road.

Do I really want to walk it?
There are no guarantees with anything.