Lessons in Love

Everybody just wants to be loved.

Is okay to want to be loved.

Is a basic and essential need we have.

The more I let go of my expectations of earthly physical love
the more I am open and receptive to the spiritual love that is always fully encompassing
The spiritual love that trails after me and in front of me and is always there to support and guide me
material and physical love is never complete
it is always burdened by the needs of the flesh
by the wearing down of physicality

the more I accept this and realize this the easier it is to let these things go and be

The more I let go of my need
the more I realize maybe was just a want

In all of my vague posts, right now I am making large headway. I am putting love into the Universe not for she who is a total manipulative liar and weasel. No, there is no love for her or hers ever again
I put out love into the universe that everyone else can put their focus to her. Let them. I don't want it. What good or use was the support?

But evermore it gets more and more silent because I can feel the magnetized efforts everyone is outputting for her.

Goodness knows she will need it.

Do I need the love? Yes. I do. But not from those avenues anymore. Ever again. Let them have their earthly distractions. Let them shower her in all of their abilities. I know what is lacking.

I just pray that the spirits will hear my prayers, that the ethers will rise up to support me in the ways I most need. That their intentions for me to sail in this zone and space most healthily will come to fruition. That they will help me with the end goal of delivering a healthy baby.