November 10

I know I know I know, more lagging behind on posting these blogs.

Things have been good. Less busy but still I have enough to do every day that it is always a very full day.

Today I have the day off and thus far I have been sitting here at the computer giving a half-assed effort at typing up my Practicum journal logs. This is really the bulk of the paperwork that I have to complete in order to submit and get the whole thing evaluated but I still have some time to do it. I should have kept up with them and wrote them immediately after that day's work but time was obviously an issue. An also, I found out that I spent over 120 hours on-site during my practicum experience, 20 hours OVER my required 100 hours. I really don't know how that happened and I'm thinking an error on my part with the excel sheet stuff might have been to blame. But whatever, atleast it is all said and done with now. Except for the paperwork that is. But I'm off tomorrow too and I am going to do a bunch of work tomorrow.

I haven't really had too much leisure time for myself at all lately. I've been able to squeeze in time to knock out a book or two (and by books I mean easy reading non-fiction books less than 150 pages long....) I got a bunch of reading done last night because instead of picking out one of the sub-par movies available for our viewing that we have to watch, Mark chose instead to put on Nightmare on Elm Street 2.....yeah....

Things are going pretty good though. I spent yesterday and the day before doing a bunch of cleaning because I had a lady come to the house yesterday and then we had a play date which was the first time our friends had ever been over....so I wanted to make a good impression. I hate having to justify why my house is always messy and I really feel like there is something within me that is lacking because at this point in the game, I just don't really care anymore. Firstly, we have a whole household of less-than-clean people. ALL of us are messy and the girls can destroy an entire room together in less than 15 minutes. I've seen it happen (to a room that was freshly cleaned of course....) If messiness versus clean house were an equation or something the messiness proportion would be much higher than the cleanliness portion and it's just overwhelming.

I don't really care anymore. I mean, it's livable. Obviously we are doing just fine. I don't have nasty bugs or mold or anything (okay, we did get a fly problem AGAIN this summer, but there are a lot of factors that contributed to that, maybe because the lady downstairs puts food out to attract the flies and then the broken screen on the back door window allowed them to get in and once you get them it's damn near impossible to get rid of them????) and I will say that because I have rescinded the responsibility of dish washing to Mark, the quality of my kitchen sink area has dramatically decreased. So there probably is mold sneaking in there. But it's his chore now, not mine. I was dishes on an as-needed basis now. That's what he gets for complaining. He doesn't really do the best job at them either but at least it isn't up to me to do them anymore.

It's really all part of my master plan to turn him into a house-husband kind of. I mean, he'll always be manly and do his manly car stuff, that's a given. But if I'm going to be the main breadwinner around here, it shouldn't just be on me to clean the house. Plus I really suck at domestic aspects and I am kind of lazy and just don't care enough to be OCD about it. Whatever. There are a lot of people like me hiding out surrounded by their mess and clutter and nobody is none the wiser.

But I get tired of having to explain it. The frustration you get after cleaning the same damn room 3 times in a row only to have it get messy (AGAIN). The discouragement felt after cleaning and cleaning and cleaning only to hear remarks that I must not have done anything all day.

I have also changed the game a bit. But that's for further discussion another time.

My girls are doing quite well. I'm always just so amazed at how fast they are growing and how much they know. They love to sing, even Mal, and it's funny because we sing all of the time, just regular songs and Nursery rhymes and all sorts of stuff. I need to get the video camera together and really start getting these girls on tape. It makes me sad to think that I haven't been keeping up with everything, but life has been busy. I don't like to think about them getting older too because it makes me sad, not only are they getting older but I am as well and they aren't always going to be babies. Marilyn is already such a big girl and she really talks a lot. Past tense and everything. She knows what she is talking about too! :(

But I'm getting all jammed up in this chair and I think I'm going to go outside since it is such a beautiful day and haul all of the yard stuff into the garage. Take a computer break.

Soon....