Friday Friday Funtime!

The baby doesn't have enough diapers at daycare so I have to go back up there before I head into work. Ugh. It's bad enough that on my day to sleep in I have to wake up and then hurry up and get the kids dressed and to school so that they are able to eat lunch and take a nap on schedule for daycare. Atleast they are getting fed decent food. I totally don't really feel like going into work right now. I'm getting a little downhearted about things and I haven't even been waiting that long and already it's getting frustrating. I really need to sit back and enjoy the next month or so because once something does come my way I'll be working (and earning) a whole lot more than I am now. And plus Christmas is coming up and Thanksgiving and I have to play catch-up with everything else that I have put on the back burner for the past year and a half. I really don't feel like it though.

On top of work stuff, I don't know, I called BS when I first heard it, but I was really hoping that he'd surprise me and do something unexpected as far as in not disappointing me this time. But Mark did not take me to the jewelery store to even look at rings yesterday, like he had said. In fact, there was an argument in which he claimed that he NEVER had said that. I don't want to get too much into my personal life, but it just kind of bothers me that the man I am choosing to spend my time with (I say time and not life because for the moment there is absolutely no gurantee on that because he won't even discuss getting married to me.) I don't want to get into all of the reasons on why he's such a balker on the issue, I can't say I honestly know. I think it's because he gets a bit moody. I can't shake him and I know it would devastate him to not have everything he has now. I'm just getting pretty frustrated because at this point, I don't think it is ever going to happen and sometimes that makes me really sad and other times it doesn't. It's one of those things that is like concrete I feel. Men look to see if women are wearing rings. They do. It's like a pre-test before they make flattering remarks. And they'll ask. Not that in any way shape or form I'm implying that I want other men, I don't. But isn't that what being married is? An official way of saying, You're Mine?

I don't know.

On the other hand, I think I may have solved the mystery as to Mallory's frequent night screamings, I see some molars that have popped through and there seem to be a few. I don't think that there is anything specifically I could have done to make it better, but I can't wait until this whole waking-up-screaming phase is over. I feel so awful because I have to just tell her to be quiet and go back to bed and sometimes I have to put her at the end of the bed or else she will roll and kick everyone and scream in your ear. At least when I'm a little bit harsh she only screams for a second and then sucks on her finger and goes right back to sleep. Marilyn hasn't been feeling too hot either and last night would sporadically wake up shaking and crying and then throw up. Or say that she wanted water. She was just fine this morning so I took her to school but it seems that everyone in my family is sick and I'm dodging the bullet (knock on wood). I hope I don't get sick. I don't have time for that.

I will say though, that if I could, I would totally stay in all day with my babies and have a nice day. I don't really feel like going into work. I don't want to drop off diapers. Ugh. But work means money and I need money to pay the bills. I worked last night so hopefully we should be decently caught up so it won't be a difficult afternoon by any means. I just have to wake up some more.

I wonder how this evening will be. We don't really have any good movies, Mark works until later so I'm sure I will hear the many adventures of his day for awhile. Maybe/Maybe Not have the girls in bed (hopefully?) Darn. I have to make dinner too. Ugh. I made a joke about having Mark get a mail-order bride to marry so she would cook and clean and be part of the family (but she could date people as to not make us a poly amorous couple). Another recent argument around here has been how I do absolutely nothing around the house (ha ha) and someone apparently does EVERYTHING. (Including beat the whole of Metal Gear Solid 3 for the PS2 in less than three weeks......I don't even want to check the in-game hours on the memory card...)

My domestic strife.

But hi ho hi ho it's off to work I go. It will be a great day. Too bad my babies will be crabby by the time I see them again later. This morning Mallory woke me up by playing with a plastic comb and singing 'I Love You' Barney theme song to me. In her cute red/pink footie pajamas. Smiling. Singing. Loving on me. We get the whole weekend atleast!