It's been a rough week

Oh. Thank goodness it is Saturday. It's really been a rough week for me and there have been so many things going on. I really really try to stay positive online (especially on my Facebook and such) but sometimes it is tough to keep your head up when it feels like the whole world keeps raining down.

But I know how to count my blessings and I'm very thankful for all of the things I DO have.

That $25 an hour job would have been nice, but it obviously wasn't meant to be. Atleast I got the satisfaction of knowing that I was a good enough candidate for the job to even get an interview. I got to bask in that excitement for a week before it was taken away. But I still have my 3 other jobs which allow me to provide for my family.

I can't listen to all the woes from everyone else because I have so many I'm dealing with of my own. I don't even want to make too many phone calls because I don't want to carry on about all of my problems. I have friends, just not all-of-the-time friends. They get busy and it's hard to connect a lot of the time. I feel so isolated and alone with so many things...thank god I have sisters because they'll listen to anything.

I feel like I'm completely overwhelmed with my housework and keeping up. I'm making efforts to spring clean because maybe that will pull me out of this funk, and it's going, but it's hard when you don't have any help. There's just so much stuff that needs to be done and I'm frustrated because I want to remodel and do so many things but it isn't my house and whatever energy and effort I put into it isn't going to benefit me in a year. I've got to crack down and seriously start saving up for a down payment for a house. The more I save, the nicer of a house I can get. But that's a long ways off.

I hate being in the doldrums and in these funks. It's been like this for a minute, that job interview really perked me up (and then the bubble burst...). I can't say I'm surprised though, I get like this every single year around this time. Mentally I refer to this as the birthday blues. Then I wonder what I can do differently this time around. I get like this a lot around Christmas too. Maybe all the anticipation builds up and I know I'll be let down. Or not quite completely let down, but majorly disappointed in some way or another.

I've been running on a sleep shortage though, and every opportunity I've had to sleep in is foiled by a certain noisy man who likes to wake up early and turn on all of the lights. I'm a somewhat light sleeper and not a very happy waker-upper so it's been rough.

Today I had the opportunity to sleep in (and I requested yesterday that I get that full opportunity).....I've been up since 6:15. I don't even get up that early on Fridays when I have to teach.


I'll post something good soon, because there have been lots of good things, but my doom and gloom is just overshadowing a lot of things.

I'd better open up my umbrella.