Another weekend past

So I made it through another weekend. I just keep hoping and praying that this upcoming week will be a good week.

I sat down the other day and really really thought things through within this whole situation. There were so many things that were fishy and so many discrepancies. Too many lies and too much information that just doesn't add up. I am just a part in the big meat and puppet show that goes on and Children and Family services seem to be the puppeteer in all of this. There is a lot of information that for obvious reasons I am not posting on here, but in the whole overall picture of things, there are a lot of things that just don't make any sense.

If my father doesn't get custody I should have another 2 hour supervised visit this week. So in any case, I will get to see my girls. When I last spoke to a supervisor they indicated that something would be occurring "early to mid week". I have an appointment with a therapist scheduled for Thursday evening and that is one of the things that they are requiring we do in any case, I do not want to have to reschedule this appointment again.

The 23rd is also fast approaching and that is just the pretrial, I can only hope that the attorneys know what they are doing and that my life will resume in a somewhat normal fashion. However, it is still too far ahead to really plan out or even imagine. I can use the power of positive thinking and visualize a happy ending to all of this. I just don't know how long this nightmare is going to continue on for.

We are going on 3 weeks. 19 days of hell at this point. When is enough going to be enough? How much job security is this providing for numerous workers?

As to those of you who have been following this and have left comments, I can be reached via e-mail at:

(I am coding this for internet purposes. type the letter that comes directly after the letter shown example- a=b b=c z=a because no letter technically comes before a) The last thing I want is my e-mail address appearing somewhere that is directly searchable (even though this blog is not indexed by search engines). So if you can make sense of my funny decoding, feel free to e-mail me.

lkadkzrbn@gmail.com

I can't wait until I can hold my babies again at night and not settle for cuddling with their Hello Kitty toys. I can't wait to buy Marilyn every single zu zu pet that she wants. I can't wait to just sit and be with my children and let their needs completely consume me, like it is supposed to be, like it was before the babysnatchers descended and stuck their dirty corrupt hands into my life.