At what point?

At what point do I throw in the towel? Do I say that enough is enough is enough?

How many people are going to view me as the villain? How many more can I upset or disappoint in passive ways?

Why do I have to feel like I can't fully bask within myself, within the world that I have worked so hard to achieve, within my life?

Without the barriers and boundaries I have put in place, I would only constantly leave myself open to everyone else's opinions and critiques.

And for what purpose?

To what means?

Apparently I've pushed away anyone who cares and I'm too intimidating to all the others.

This just feels like futility.

I would rather be left alone, in the solitude of myself, within a world I have crafted to the means that make me happy, than expose myself to continue ridicule and drama and boundry-less being.

I might as well, this overload will not be quelled or quashed.

Trying to keep the mood is a complete wash out.

Why bother.