Still waiting

So yet another day has passed and I am still waiting. I feel like all I do is make phone calls and talk on the phone all day and wait for phone calls.

I had a home visit today with the GAL on the case, she thinks it would be in the girls best interest to go with family.

I don't really even know what to say.

Thanks to everyone who is being so supportive right now. It really means a lot. I have had lots of nice and supportive e-mails, phone calls and time with friends.

I just don't know how much longer I can go on like this. It's physically draining, it's emotionally draining, it's mentally draining. I'm not eating right, I sleep just fine, but I have all of this time to myself that I have never ever had before in my life. I can't say even that I'm enjoying it. I'm all alone and I've never been before.

On top of all of this, I did not get that position that I interviewed for. Which is okay, because I thought it was too far away for comfort anyhow, but it would have been nice. Dream job, when are you going to let me find you? When are you going to open?

When are things going to start turning around for me? I count my blessings, but what am I left to count anymore? (I know I know I have lots of things to be happy for, but it doesn't seem like much right now)

Busy morning tomorrow with my classes. And then the weekend. Again.