An arduous ordeal

I realize I haven't updated things in a bit, that is because there has been little that has been new.

We have another pretrial next week, during which, the date for our hearing will be set. The hearing has to occur something before the tail end of August. They must be within their 90 days.

In the meantime there are many other things, I have been spending all of my waking hours with the girls and they are doing great. They are seeing 2 different counselors and I also see my counselor as well on a regular basis. So on top of all of these legal people examining my life with a microscope, I have 3 psychologists examining everything in depth as well.

On top of that, things with Mr. M have ceased to be. We're at a amicable level where we can talk and discuss things, but relationship wise we are no longer a couple and at this point will never be again. This is just on top of everything else.

God must have something in store for me, I do not know what, but the plans I had for my life weren't sufficient and I am being given this rebirth of a life for a reason. I will have more independence than ever before (and ever truly expected) and a chance to re-make many decisions.

I don't want to get into the emotional toll everything is having on me.


In any case, the big happening for today is now going to be my creation of a witness list for the hearing. I ask you this, if you are willing to help out in any way shape or form, in that you have something truly relevant and helpful to say regarding my parenting skills that you have witnessed, please let me know. I have only a few days to compile a list.

If we win this trial, everything will be very good. I will get the girls back, Mark will be able to see them again, the whole issue will be struck from the record (although it will still appear that we went through it, we won't be found guilty of the charges.) My girls will be able to come home where they belong and be with me, their mother.

If we don't win this trial, they will take temporary custody of my children for another 9 months (until May of next year) and although they may leave them with my father, they are under no obligation to do so. I will have their dirty hands in my life on a regular basis and who knows what else they will do to me in this time.

That's where everything stands. This whole issue is literally because of a 3 year old who likes to touch her vagina. Seriously.

I could really use all of the prayers and support as possible. I am being raked back and forth over the coals lately and this is probably the most difficult time in my life that I have ever encountered.

Let me know if you can help or would be willing to.