My rant for today

I am not a happy camper today.

This entire situation is very wearing on me. Obviously. In a span of 3 weeks, literally everything in my life fell apart. And the bullshit just seems to continue on and on and on and on.

I got some mail today, if I don't get the kids back, I lose my health insurance amongst other things. It makes sense, since I'm a grown up and all and I should provide these things for myself, but this is yet one more example of how meddlesome caseworkers can ruin your life.

What are they trying to accomplish? I'm not quite sure but they have taken so many things and just ruined them.

Before all of this I was an excellent mom. I work enough to pay the bills and enough that I still can spend ample time with my children, who I absolutely adore and love.

M and I provide an excellent family environment for them, which has only improved a ton since he left his full-time job. The PLAN was for him to be the primary caretaker while I worked full time. There was nothing wrong with this plan whatsoever. Our best interest is for our girls, and was for our family unit as a whole.

Now my children will be part of a broken home, I guess that isn't such a big deal, but it really really really is when I have worked very hard and sacrificed a lot in order for this not to happen.

But Children and Family services doesn't seem to care. They deal with so many dysfunctional and broken-homed families, hell, they are lucky if the parents even have a bond with the child and if there is a caring relationship. It's astounding that I even know my children's birthdays in their eyes. That is the type of parent they normally deal with.

And so, because I'm poor and young I fall into this wonderful stereotype (in their eyes) of which I'm not even sure of. They don't pull these schenanigans on people they assume have money and smarts to defend themselves. They stick to the poor and stupid, people who probably shouldn't be having or raising children in the first place.

But what have they done to me?

They have ripped my entire family unit apart, stripped me of my parenting rights (of which I am an EXCELLENT parent), broken up my relationship, forced me to be back on unstable financial grounds, given my children separation and anxiety issues, and have caused me a nightmare of a roller coaster.

When will the bullshit end? Where is the rainbow here?