A Day for Complainin'

This is definitely not a positive blog. This is me being completely whiney. I know it will all get better but on it's own timeline and I'm boiling mad about a lot of things. A lot of things.

1. I hate Mondays. I hate when my weekend was so busy and I'm finally feeling just a tiny bit caught up and then BAM it's Monday again and I'm still way far behind.

2. I hate cold wet rain. I hate cold wet rain when today is a day that I have to move.

3. I hate moving. I hate having to haul small bags and boxes of every single one of my possessions down the flight 1/2 of stairs to the van and then out of the van and up 3 more flights of stairs to the upstairs of my house. I hate that I have to do it by myself.

4. I hate that sometimes it doesn't feel like I have any friends. Even though I know I have friends. But I mostly just hate having to move so much that my anger is seeping out onto the world. More so the people that I know. Because I hate having to move so much, and especially doing it all by myself. 'I'm getting stronger'

5. I don't like having to be so strong. I feel like the last standing ivory tower. Or the tower of Ministireth possibly. I seriously feel like I'm all alone in a lot of things. I have some support, but not what it should optimally be. At all. Everything crumbled.

6. I feel shut out. Set aside. Definitely not cared about anymore. This is the reality however. Probably for good until more people come along.

7. I feel like lately I'm my own traveling rain storm. I apologize for the pity party.

8. The metaphor of bitter on the inside and sweet on the outside. The unknown brand of apple at Marc's.

9. To get back onto benefits this afternoon I had to wait in line for 40 minutes. 40 minutes just to turn in some paperwork. At the not-as-busy office. I'm going to be that person who complains about getting welfare because the system is so out of control that it is a joke. You have to jump through so many hoops and there is never anything like a timely manner to these people. Some of them are nice but most of the workers are slow and slack off in their work and don't really care. They spend more time standing around chatting and not actually doing their work then they do to just do the work. And it doesn't take long to do. And then even if you are eligible you still have to fight for benefits because they always mess up the paperwork or how it is all input anyhow. My last caseworker was horrible. If anyone ever reads this and they themselves have had a similar experience, please leave an anonymous comment.

10. My kitchen sink. It is clogged and I'm waiting on the plumber to call me and come to the house because the sink is really clogged. And I'm moving. And I have to wash my dishes and the kitchen so I need the sink. And it smells. *sigh*

11. My house. Is a disaster. It's getting cleaned out but not as fast as I was originally hoping.

12. Work. Because instead of putting together my assignment and stuff for this evening, I'm writing this blog.

13. Accounting. Because I'm terribly behind. I really could use help. I'll pay you to take my class. Math. :(

14. Complaint letters. Do you know how much time this is going to take to write so many letters? I feel like I need to do it though. Why shouldn't I be a thorn in their side and stick up for what is right? I can't wait to hear what the counselor has to say when I tell her about the case. Shoot. I really have to call her now.

15. Moving.

16. That the new house STILL isn't cleaned or cleared out, and the kitchen isn't done. He said he was going to get working on it yesterday. If I have to clean the new house I'm going to charge him for my cleaning services. Or just boss them around and watch over it. Incorrigible men.

17. It's really lonely not having any other adult around.

18. How there's always that person at work who dictates what you are going to do for the day and you lose your free will and power over making decisions. At least in terms of what you were going to do for the day.

19. Something else.

20. Something else.

21. Something else.


So there you go. That is my list of complaints for right now. My hand also hurts from typing and the plumber is about to be here and I have to pack up the kitchen and do my work for class tonight as well. *Sigh*

And it's raining. So my move is further delayed.