Good things in little doses

Sometimes good things come in little doses. Not meaning good things are little, not quite true, but a little thing can turn out to be quite good.

There's been a lot of different stuff going on as usual (words of my life yo) but in general things have been good. Just busy.

I took the LSAT two weeks ago almost and I'm still waiting on the scores. I'm not super antsy or worried about how I did, I studied quite a bit, so we will see. I have my optimal range and my desired range and I know what it's like if I do have to take the test again in October. I also found myself an attorney to help out and I'm looking forward to that. That won't start up though until sometime next month or so.

The girls are well. I'll talk about them within their own paragraphs though because they are very much their own separate people although I like to morph them into one amorphous Malloryn being, it doesn't always work out best that way. I've have the girls home more for the summer and they have been out of school. They are good little girls but I am not going to lie and say that they aren't driving me crazy a bit. I'm definitely overpowered in this situation. Partly being my own fault too, they are very independent and not afraid to challenge my opinions (which I do allow for given that they provide logic and reasoning behind their explanations- which they do- and if it makes sense I acquiesce). There were many many many things that I didn't think about and this parenting stuff doesn't have a handbook. I'm in the school of thought on flying by the seat of your pants, and so far it is working, but with interesting results. They have been just running around and there has been some house drama with the dog being let out  while I will be in the other room doing something productive, like making an honest attempt at tackling my laundry.

Marilyn is getting so excited for kindergarten. She had her preschool graduation awhile back and although there was much expressed dissent at wearing the graduation gown (I had to threaten her that she wouldn't be able to go to kindergarten if she didn't wear it) she did very well. I remember thinking last summer when my little sister graduated that the next time I would be at a high school graduation would be in 13 years for Marilyn's. It's a weird thought sometimes. She's starting to really develop an emotional sense about many things and she gets very upset over hypothetical situations. She's also my whiney tattletale child. I have been getting her on the computer more and more and it is awesome to see how quickly she is picking up on everything. I was highly entertained the other day when she chose to tackle my closet and wear my clothes at her leisure. She was pairing up my heels with my dresses and came up with some combinations that I had not even considered yet. She has quite the fashionable eye and it is funny to me. I saw this developing awhile ago when she refused to wear sweatpants because they were "too sloppy", at 3 years old. She picks out her own outfits all of the time anymore. She wants to marry HeMan or Hercules and she asks me for a skateboard every couple of days. She's a very sweet and dynamic little girl and it is funny to look at her now as she's climbing on a jungle gym (or our swingset) or running around wild and I can still see the little crazy wild baby that she was, except now she is a little girl. She's so beautiful too, I see so much of myself in her, which worries me though. Ha ha, she just stole the phone from Mallory so she can play her model fashion dress up game. She begs me for a phone and I'm going to get her an iTouch for her birthday. She's quite capable with technology already and I'm impressed. I might not be able to teach my children science or math, but I can teach them logic and reasoning and debating and technology. And I will fill my home with interesting and engaging literature that they can ingest and soak in as soon as they learn how to read.

Mallory is something something. She's so tough and strong and just wild. I want to call her little bad, and she isn't really bad, but she's mischievous and she antagonizes Marilyn endlessly. She does what she wants to do and she's very determined. She is prone to temper tantrums  about the most ridiculous of things. My sister got to witness one yesterday I guess during which Mallory hysterically melted down for over half an hour over not wanting to go to the bathroom. Guess what, she did have to go to the bathroom, she just didn't want anyone to tell her what to do. Story of my life lately. Mallory is kind of tricky, she does all of the same things as Marilyn but she's even ore independent and saucy than her sister. She is constantly into everything. Right now she is rolling my deodorant on her neck. I did stop her. Mallory also desperately wants to go to kindergarten and to ease the arguments that were never ending on the subject (my children fight about everything these days) I started to refer to Mallory's new preschool as little kindergarten. It doesn't do much good though when Marilyn antagonizes Mallory and tells her that she's going to make all new friends and all of her friends are going to be mean to Mallory and kick her. Kick her? WTF? I don't know sometimes. I really don't. Mallory is also going to marry HeMan but that was a point of debate the other day as to who gets to marry HeMan.

Is it bad to hide from your children sometimes? I love them and I love being around them when they aren't fighting and whining and crying because they are terribly mean to each other sometimes but then overly sweet and wonderful to each other other times. There's always something to fight about and they always find something.  Whining is my biggest pet peeve and don't they know it. I feel though sometimes that they follow me around to whine at me.

As far as me.....well lets see. Everytime I turn around lately it has been this or that or something else. I don't like to be a complainer, but you know, sometimes you can really only take so much, but I've been keeping up and trying to catch up. I have had some work drama and just life drama and I'm amazed at how malicious and no-good people are. I like to think that everyone has potential for goodness and I think everyone does, to an extent. When in doubt, just smile. Good things always find their way in if you leave room and I have found time and time again, if you want something bad enough and project that out into the world and have the patience for it, the world will provide. In time. I also often get the point of no return and I figuratively throw the towel in and before all is lost things find a way of turning themselves around and hope is restored. I have been having a really really great weekend. :)

By tonight my house will be clean and not by my hand (awesomeness!) My house is coming coming together, I ordered a bed and I will finally have a full set of actual bedroom furniture! I haven't had that (set up and all proper and stuff) since 2006 or so. Wow. I am hoping to have my files all tucked away in my filing cabinet by the end of this week too. ORGANIZATION!!!!

Sometimes good things are little and sometimes they are big. Sometimes they come in little doses, but I'll take it whatever way I get it.