Dualities

Earlier today I was thinking

I was thinking a lot

a lot about a lot of things

and I was going tomake a list, and title it 'jealousies'
and list all of the things that I wanted to whine about that I don't have

but now I'm here

writing
and even earlier when I was thinking
I was thinking, wow Michelle,

that's pretty whiney, to only talk about your wantings

talk about your blessings, that's what matters.

so I've therefore spent more time today dwelling in my blessings
and from such

I can absolutely say
that I'm pulling together my energy in-this-moment
to go forward to do what it is that I must do
and keep on smiling
and doing good

but my story continues at the same dreary pace in this downward spiral with only my hopes to keep me afloat that anything might change