Love-li-ness

Good morning,

It was so nice today when I woke up I thought surely I had overslept. Sometimes it feels weird to have so much energy back again.

I don't know how I'm feeling lately. Is that weird? I was feeling in a weird mopey sad place last week but mostly that was in relation to my reaction to people.

I think I'm secretly (not so secretly) an introvert. Or maybe not?

Sometimes I've been thinking that I could use a change. The things that I plan out to pan out in my life aren't coming to fruition. Sure, some things are. This wedding stuff and this awesome relationship are working out- which brings such joy and happiness and security and comfort to me. It feels good to start this shift. Not so anxiousy about it anymore- which is really good.

Instead I'm getting anxiousy about the outside world. About other people. About being forced to conform myself into the laws and world of Man. I get anxiousy about expectations and about being stuck on a time schedule where I'm expected to do things or be places at certain times.

I had a mini panic attack the other day while in conversation with someone. I pulled through it and kept it together- but sometimes people pressure us when they aren't even realizing it.

Things are coming together though; and so far- for today- I feel good. I'm about to wake up the girlies and get them ready and off to school. Mal has a eye dr. appointment this afternoon- so that will be that.

I've been on a semi break from using any of my energy hands on anyone else (with a few exceptions) and that's been weird too- but I'm starting to feel my vitality coming back. Maybe I burned myself too low?

Today is beautiful. It is my goal to get my crystals outside and suncharged (and to stock back up on my incense and oils- it's weird when I don't have them around!)

Loveliness.